Uuugggghhh…seriously scale? Seriously?

Okay, so I’ve been talking on my vlog on YouTube about my goal of losing 100 lbs (since my highest weight) by Valentine’s Day.

A couple of weeks ago I was really unsure about whether I was going to get there, but I’ve had great losses the past few weeks (last week I lost 8 frickin’ pounds!) and I was pretty convinced I was going to get there.

In fact, on Friday, I weighed in at 361 – just 1 pound shy of my goal. Awesome…6 days to lose 1 lb.

Yesterday morning…360.4. So close.

This morning…360.2. Oh come on now!

Tomorrow I’ll probably be 360.1, FFS.

It’s not really a big deal, it just figures it would happen when I got close to a milestone.

Now, it is Aunt Flo’s time to make her appearance, and I have been feeling really bloated, so it’s highly possible that is skewing the numbers, but still…really?

Hope it’s good news tomorrow 🙂




Photos: Comparison Body Shots – 2 Months Post-Op

Hey all!

So I got my stuff together and did some photos today and took the time to do some side by sides.

I have to admit that the front-on photo shocked me a bit – especially from the chest (ugh, much smaller) up. I have a neck! And a little shadow where my collarbones should be. That’s awesome 🙂






Video: Body Shot – 2 Months Out from VSG

You can view my original pre-op body shot video (for comparison) by clicking here.

Planning on putting together some side-by-side photos later tonight 🙂

Woohoo! 2 month surgiversary….

Okay, yes. I wanted to post on Wednesday, but it didn’t happen. What’s new? LOL

2 months have passed in what seems like a flash, and yet at the same time parts of this journey have seemed like an absolute eternity!

Sooo…what are my totals looking like now? Here’s a rundown of my first 2 months:

Highest Pre-Op Weight: 460 lbs (September 2012)

Pre-Op Weight Loss: -40 lbs

Surgery Day Weight: 420 lbs (November 30, 2012)

Week 1: -11 lbs

Week 2: -8 lbs

Week 3: -3 lbs

Week 4: -3.5 lbs

Week 5: -3 lbs

Week 6: – 8.5 lbs

Week 7: -4 lbs

Week 8: -5 lbs

Week 9: -5 lbs

Total Loss Since Surgery (51 lbs/2 months)

Total Loss Since Highest Weight (91 lb/4 months)

As far as eating etc. goes, still getting in 500-600 calories a day, 80-90g of protein and 20-30g of carbs. Doing good with water/liquids and vitamins.

Sleevie Wonder is still a total food slut and seems to accept pretty much anything (not sure if that will ultimately be a good or bad thing!). Every now and then he gets a little cranky when I eat a bit too much or a bit too fast, but even then it’s just an uncomfortable feeling, nothing more.

Overall I am so thrilled with my progress, and creepin’ up on 100 lbs lost since my highest weight 🙂




I Understand Why This Can Be So Hard…

I found the following post on OH today, and it really spoke to me…

To lose the weight would mean to allow myself to hurt. To lose weight would mean not numbing myself anymore. It would mean experiencing pain to its maximum. It would also mean experiencing happiness. I tend to forget.

My weight is a barrier between me and others. I’ve allowed it to define me because I am afraid of defining myself- and being disappointed. To lose weight would mean to experience. To lose the weight would mean to break down the walls that have protected me for so long.

To lose weight also means living in the present. To accept your failures and go for your successes. It would mean leaving the realm of “When I lose weight” and enter that of “Today I will”.

It is difficult to be thinner because it would entail in living. And life is scary. And life can hurt. But I will find the strength to lose this safety net I have made of my body and allow myself to be for the first time in a while…