The final countdown….

Duh duh duh duh, dun dun dun dun dun, duh duh duh duh duh, dun dun dun dun dun, duh…yeah, okay, can’t get it out of my head now. Damn you Europe, and your catchy retro tune.

So, I’m sitting here at our hotel, Hotel Lucerna, in Mexicali, and just chillin’. Waiting for hubby to get up to go to dinner – the “Last Supper” as it were. Apparently we are allowed to eat (and even drink) whatever we want tonight, so after the two week pre-op diet, I am actually excited about eating, LOL.

Today was actually relatively painless. Got picked up from the airport in San Diego by Ernesto, our driver, and had about a 2 hour drive to Mexicali, mostly through desert. Of course I got to meet the other people having surgery tomorrow – Stephanie from Kansas City and Ken from Salt Lake City – which was cool. We’re all sort of in it together I guess!

After arriving at Almater hospital we met with Karla, our patient coordinator, who basically took care of us for the next couple of hours. First it was time for lab work (the standard pee in a cup and get some blood taken), then we met with Dr. Campos (who spoke to us all about nutrition and eating post-op), Dr. Aceves (who spoke with us about what to expect tomorrow), and also the anesthesiologist (who talked to us about exactly what’s going to be done).

We were also supposed to do our EKG and chest x-rays today, but the hospital was very busy, so Karla just said we can do them tomorrow morning.

Everyone we met was great, very friendly and knowledgeable, and I feel like I am absolutely I good hands for my surgery tomorrow! Almater Hospital is a great facility – much nicer than any Canadian hospital I’m sure.

So after dinner it’ll be chill out time and then bed time, since we need to meet Ernesto in the lobby to take us back to Almater at 7am. Not sure exactly where I’m going to be in the surgery line-up (either first or second I think), but either way, I’m just so happy tomorrow is the big day!!!

Still no fear…just feeling grateful and hopeful for what’s ahead…




Video: Pre-Op, Last Night at Home


Video: Pre-Op, Kitchen Tour

So, this one is fun – a tour of my corner of the kitchen with all my pre- and post-op goodies. Yay!


Video: Pre-Op, More History

The video below is very personal, and it gets emotional. There is crying, it’s a bit dark, so if that’s not your thing, don’t press play.


All my bags are packed, I’m ready to go…

Okay, so that’s a fib…not totally packed, and not completely ready to go – but damn close!

Can’t believe it’s almost here – we leave tomorrow morning for San Diego.

The past few months have been a whirlwind, and they have been full of sacrifice and change, but all for good.

I’m proud to be able to say that I’ve now lost nearly 40 lbs. in the past two months (16 in the past 13 days on the pre-op surgery prep diet).

And I would never, ever say that it was easy, but it wasn’t actually as hard as I expected to be. I’m hoping that trend continues, of course.

I am so excited and…the only way that I can describe is hopeful. Full of hope. Finally, it’s like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, a light I wasn’t even sure existed.

And I feel at peace with my decision – no regrets whatsoever, and very little nerves right now.

I’ll be posting a number of videos today (shot both yesterday and today), so I don’t want to ramble on here, but I am feeling overwhelmingly grateful right now for this amazing gift that I am about to be given.

Less of me, more myself. That’s more like it 😉

More updates soon, I promise.



A lot can happen in one week…

Yeah…one more week to go. In fact, it’s possible that exactly one week from now I could already be out of surgery – or even still in surgery.

And I am officially freaking out.

And the stupid thing is, I’m not sure why.

I mean, clearly I *generally* know why…my surgery is in a week.

But I’m talking about the specific why – like what is it exactly that is making me anxious?

It’s hard to even pin-point what I’m feeling…anxiety, excitement, nervousness, fear?

I think overwhelmingly I just want it to be over – I want to fast-forward to being home and just “dealing” with it, not thinking in possibilities but dealing with realities.

But…too much that needs to be done in the next week. And I know one thing that is making me anxious is that a lot can happen in 7 days. I am definitely afraid of something happening that is going to mess up my surgery – whether it’s a health issue (like a cold), a family issue, whatever.

Trying to actually “stay calm and carry on”. We’ll see how that works.

One-week pre-op video will be coming your way later today and my news items of the day is…

I’ve hit my pre-surgery goal of 425 with a week of my pre-op diet remaining!



Pre-op update type stuff…

Okay, so…I’m still here, and I haven’t committed any violent acts due to hunger, so let’s take that as a win, shall we?

Pre-op diet is going better – still hungry a lot of the time, but not painfully or insanely so. Getting about 700 calories a day right now: 125-135g protein, around 20-25g carbs and 10-15g fat.

The weight is seriously falling off though – I literally lost 3 lbs between yesterday and today (yes, I have actually been weighing every day now – which I said I would never do – but I need the motivation, in a positive way, to get through this!).

Overall I’m down 11 lbs in just 6 days!

My personal goal (and it was just a number, I would not have stressed at all if I didn’t get there) was a pre-surgery weight of 425 lbs (which would have been a loss of 35 lbs overall pre-surgery). Looks like I’m going to blow right by that, so that’s awesome.

I was thinking tonight how nice it’ll be to get on the scale and see a number that starts with “3”. I was hoping that would happen by New Years – right now, it’s looking like that might actually happen sooner, which is an exciting possibility!

Anyway, on to other things…

I posted a video yesterday in which I talked about my new family doctor and experiences I had with doctor’s in the past (good and bad).

I do think it’s really important to have a doctor that sees you as more than just a morbidly obese person – one that sees that obesity is just part of your medical history, not the root cause of every little thing that’s wrong with you. I’ve had the pleasure of encountering a few doctors like that over the years, and probably more who were incredibly biased.

You would think that I’m a medical marvel the way doctor’s seemed to always be shocked that there really isn’t anything “wrong” with me – no high blood pressure, no diabetes, very few physical ailments, a strong heart, no mobility/flexibility issues. I usually always get a comment like “I’m surprised…considering…” whenever I see a new doctor.

So, it wasn’t a surprise at the doctor’s office when the nurse took my blood pressure and it was 111/72 (which is low for me, as my average is probably more like 125/80) and said, “oh, I expected it to be higher”. Read: wow, for a seriously fat bitch I thought you would have some serious hypertension. Nice.

The doctor seemed very neutral about the whole thing…she agreed to take me on, said she had no problem with me as a post-bariatric surgery patient, but that she couldn’t guarantee what would happen if I have complications. I understood where she was coming from, as I got the feeling she really didn’t know anything about bariatric surgery or how the bariatric system works here (that said, she is from Sri Lanka and I think she’s been in Canada less than 10 years, so I’m not necessarily judging her for that).

No worries, ’cause I know lots about it, and I have no problem passing on that knowledge to her and taking control of my medical care. I think too many of us look at doctors in the old-fashioned way – like they are demi-gods, experts on everything, and what they say is law. I don’t see it that way – I see my doctor as my partner when it comes to healthcare, not as my boss. I’m happy to work *with* her to figure out the best course of action for me.

And now, off to make my one actual meal for the day – turkey burger patty topped with a bit of greek yogurt (with Old Bay mixed in, yum) and green beans with some serious garlic.